goldgust | about my 2025 mxtx remix fic

I'm being so brave by sticking to my word and posting this here as well as my blog, but as usual, nobody needs to read this nonsense (for context, most of the time after a fic I make one of these posts about the writing process but it's mostly for myself)

The fic

Where did this fic come from

The concept for this remix was so pleasingly basic to me. Switch Nan Feng for Fu Yao, then keep everything else the same, especially the backstory/setup of the fic. I've been wanting to write a fu yao fic for ages.

I had also just watched dandadan so I wanted to write dick theft. I toned it down a lot from my original vision because I thought it was too weird for an exchange gift to a stranger. But I kept it in to the extent that I did because it was like... thematic or something.

you see the author of the original put it as an offhanded line at the start that mu qing WASN'T SURE if he would lose all his power by breaking his cultivation. Of course we know from canon that Mu Qing really was willing to give all this stuff up, he took the cursed shackle, he threw himself in the lava, etc. So it's possible to imagine him making this choice. But it's an interesting detail. Then another thing in the original is this idea of excess (excess spiritual energy, double penetration...)

So, aside from being goofy porn it's playing with this idea of having or not having things (like your dick)

What was it like writing

God. In hindsight, I should not have remixed a pwp and especially not into another pwp. I did not know at the time how difficult they are to write. I was also like "if I don't include dp then I won't have enough connection to the original :((" which I probably shouldn't have worried so much about. I don't want to write any more penetrative sex for a year now I've. had. ENOUGH!!!!!!

I was SO excited to have an easy way to write mu qing/fu yao though that I couldn't turn back even when I got lost in the sauce. It's a treat to have a fave who is not only self absorbed enough to fuck their clone but has enough complexes to make a real production out of it too. I got to write the first fic in the mu qing selfcest tag! The agenda (begun in look in my eyes) advances.

Shout out to The Only Hand You'll Ever Need which is the original selfcest fic to me. The iconic, the one and only. I still think about the part where he looks at his own back.

other notes

There was originally going to be a lot more about perfume in the fic (I was listening to this song). I had this idea (you can still kind of see it with the sweets scene) that Fu Yao would be like.. the creative director of everything. He brings them what clothes to wear, he was going to choose scents for them too to set the mood. In the end it fucked up the pacing too much. Some day I will get to write in detail about characters wearing sexy perfume....